Lord Help Us!
While we were at Beacon Baptist this month, we had quite a funny thing happen to us. At least it's funny now. We were on stage Wednesday night singing, which we've done at nearly every place we've visited on this journey. Midway through the song, as I was playing my guitar and singing, I heard a commotion to my left and looked over to see our boys Caden (10) and Gavin (8) in a little bit of a tussle. I did what I could to get them to stop, but to no avail. Finally, I was able to signal Andi, who was standing on my other side, so that she could go break it up. Apparently one of them had come in at the wrong place in the song and the other gently "corrected" him, speaking right in the microphone. By the time Andi got there, there had been some shoving back and forth and one of them had grabbed the other by the tie. We were mortified in the moment, but thankfully were able to laugh about it afterward. And the people at Beacon were very gracious about it. It seems that kids are kids no matter where you go, and many were grateful to see ours be "real," even if it was on stage. It was a good learning moment for all of us. Lord, please let that never happen again!
Even during the frustration of the moment, God gently reminded us of something more important. This journey that we are on is not about us, it is all for God's glory. It can be easy to obsess about having a perfectly polished presentation, (not at all saying that it's bad to do things well) but in striving for perfection we can lose sight of who is actually doing the work. God can easily take our failures and mess-ups and redeem them for his glory. We've found often over the past months that the presentations we felt the worst about are often the very same ones that seem to have the greatest impact. You see, it's all about God, not us.
I am reminded of I Corinthians 3:6 where Paul says, "I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase." You see, Paul and Apollos put in the time and did the work that God called them to. Yet, even after their efforts, nothing happened until God did his part. All of our meager attempts for God, whether it's raising support, or sharing Christ with our neighbor, are nothing until God gets involved. And without God's involvement, there is no way we can do anything so perfectly that it accomplishes spiritual fruit without Him. I am grateful for God humbling me and teaching me not to stress about doing the work that only He can do.