This week I was reminded of an old Peanuts comic, where Lucy offers her insight aimed at the lost and struggling soul of Charlie Brown.
He's discouraged and she tells him, "You know what your trouble is? The whole trouble with you is you!"
We all know that voice.
The voice that has followed us from childhood through life.
A voice of condemnation, judgment, and ridicule that our grown-up selves cannot rise above.
With all our maturation, education and therapy, that voice cuts through to cut us down.
Surprisingly, even when we're confident and sure of ourselves, that voice shows up when we least expect it.
It speaks into our head and heart, and that old sharp pang returns to remind us of us.
A running narrative, it weaves in and out of our consciousness, and in and out of our years.
It could be the voice of a parent, a teacher or a 'Lucy' friend from long ago.
Paradoxically, it could also be our subjective interpretation (or misinterpretation) of these voices, rendering "the whole trouble with you is you!" …as self-fulfilling.
When we don't own our troubles and accept them as part of the ongoing-ness of life, we will blame our hardships on someone or something else, hearing the 'voice' as words to be avoided, dismissed or rejected, rather than an enlightened echo to embrace and learn from.
Psychiatrist Carl Jung's words, "What you resist, persists" comes to mind.
We make the voice stronger by resisting it, rather than when we acknowledge and accept it bemusedly.
"Oh – you again...