This Summer, after many months of allowing GOD to work on my heart, I finally found myself in a place in which I had no choice but to bring my broken heart to The Great I AM and trust him completely. This trust was developed through many months of firey trials, in which I would have rather not had to painfully walk through. Those months GOD was preparing, and teaching me how to fully and completely trust HIM. Knowing myself, I wouldn't have been able to walk out the next few months if I hadn't had to go through the difficult experience. My faith needed to be put to the test by The HOLY One.
In February of this year, my husband & I came to a big decision that would have me test my faith once more. This time the LORD was having us pull up our tent stakes,and head out to new lands, like the Israelites leaving Egypt or Abraham being told by GOD to leave his country, his people, his fathers' house and go to the land He instructed him to go. In the same manner it felt like we were being prompted to do the same. Leave what we know for the unknown, and trust GOD to lead the way. That has had to be the hardest decision, and yet the most rewarding spiritually, to let GOD physcially & spiritually lead, and truly follow in loving obedience.
I had seen enough times and gotten to know My Lord enough these last 2 years to know that HE IS FAITHFUL! That what he has in store for our lives is much greater than we can ever imagine. I had to fight back the feelings of being homesick, doubt and fear of what would be waiting for us as we moved forward, and leaving everything else behind. I had to mentally coach myself with GOD's truth to snap out of the "emotions" that would easily make me freeze in uncertainity and fear. I feared taking a wrong step, and following my flesh instead of the spirit. Yet, HE would remind me that He was in control. I just needed to be obedient in taking the first step. He would provide the rest.
As the last days came around in our old home and we boxed up the last of our belongings in the garage, each room echoed the emptiness I was feeling. Each noise was amplified on the naked walls; every inch was exposed and striped of life. I felt like those alls. Then GOD in HIS WORD took me to Isaiah and said,
3“Listen to me, you descendants of Jacob,
all the remnant of the people of Israel,
you whom I have upheld since your birth,
and have carried since you were born.
4Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”
That was enough for me. I would go!
As we step out of 2022 and step in to 2023, may we run confidently and boldly proclaiming THE GOOD NEWS, knowing that you have called us to you.Even when we were sinners, you loved us. You who made us will sustain us till the end.
THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE DONE AND CONTINUE TO DO! LEAD THE WAY! WE WANT TO FOLLOW YOU! WE PRAISE YOUR HOLY NAME!