An Experience in the Secret Place
In this next portion of this lengthy article… I felt led to share with you what my prayer time in the secret place can sometimes look like.
I had been contemplating what the Secret Place was all about. I realized throughout my walk with the Lord there were many times when I had created "habits" and had "religious mindsets" about how much I prayed, read the word, or worshipped. Much of what "I Did" was about my actions to gain His approval to feel worthy instead of believing that I was right with Him and my trying to earn righteousness did not bear fruit!
I know that I am not alone in this because it seems the spirit of religion drives many of the children of the most High God to ‘Perform’ or use a ‘Formula’. I had been hearing the voice of the Lord for many years, but I also knew I was often dealing with feeling condemned when I ‘hadn’t spent enough time’ so I wanted the truth and started my prayer time by thanking and believing my Father for loving me, for desiring me to come into the secret place with Him. I knew the Father wanted to speak to my spirit… He began like this.
The rituals that man create come from the need to control outcomes. The relationship with me is always flowing, it doesn’t dry up or disappear because you haven’t spent enough time praying, singing, or worshipping....my love and relationship with you is not based on what YOU do - My Love is based on who I AM!
You can never do enough to earn my attention or love - Never! You are only able to come to me at any time because you are ‘in my Son’ and His atoned blood paid for the privilege of our relationship. I planned this to happen, so that you would never not have a reason to come and be with me.
Child, if you can only let go of your predisposed ideas of love and fear of not being enough, you would grasp the intensity of my love for you. It is Not measured by what ‘you’ do, it is only ever measured by the paid blood of my precious Son.
Child, His blood - His body - His Life is my assurance of my Love for you. Whenever you doubt this, look at the cross, look at the marred and painful death of my Son and then DO NOT doubt how much I love you!
You believe in His death and His suffering, now believe in this way, my Love for you.
Child, I know you are carrying worry that you should not be carrying - there are many things that hover in your heart and mind about the future and what may be. You hear of rumours of war, suffering and pain and your heart winces at the very thought. You become afraid of what may be.... yet you know my word says be anxious for nothing but in ALL things present your requests before the Father, who is able to hear you.
Don’t allow the ‘unknown’ the distractions and the fear to take root in your heart and mind, at this moment release it to me and allow me to carry it. You do not have to try and ‘plan’ what is to come you are asked only to abide in me today.
You were not given grace for tomorrow; you were given it for today!
Child, have I not always provided you all that is needed at precisely the right time?
If I have need of you to make some changes, I am able to lead you into this. The key in all of these things that are presented before you, is BE NOT anxious for anything but in ALL things through prayer and thanksgiving present your requests before your Heavenly Father ... who REMEMBER, He cares for you!
In choosing to stay transparent and vulnerable to my readers and to express and give example of how I engage in the secret place, this is my response to my Father’s words to me.
(Note: Always be honest and transparent with your Heavenly Father, He knows all things anyway and knows already what you feel, but by expressing your heart in truth to him is really your expression of trusting Him.)
Me: Father I do feel condemned at times because I deserve to be... I wonder why I am not walking in the revelation of your healing. What must "I do" to have my eyes and heart aligned with your word in truth to see the manifestation of your Healing power in my body - in my daughter Ashleigh’s body and her life and indeed my whole family? What am I doing wrong? Lord you must be so disappointed in me and your body as we are still not where you would like us to be. Forgive us and help us by your spirit to move into who we have all been called to be.
The Father’s response to my heart:
Child, you say you deserve to be? To deserve to be, would be someone, who is not righteous, they are not standing before me covered by the blood of my Son.
To deserve to be… is someone, who is not concerned about or desiring to be in relationship with me or trying to do their best to walk with me. Do you see?
For every time you affront yourself with guilt and shame and condemnation you are failing to recognize that the relationship you are longing to have, is the very one you are working towards and my desire is to always be in communication with you. It is my delight to be fellowshipping with you. Do you understand my joy is in you, my reward is in you -the one that says My Son who paid the price for you has ransomed you unto Me!
My delight is in your heart that desires to do right by me!
My longing is that you learn to abide and come and sit with me and delight with me in this fellowship of sweet communion of our hearts that you may know you are beloved - you are not rejected, nor are you cast away when you fail to fulfill a promise or desire you made.
I never turn my back from you child - I am always watching over you to bring you into a deeper and stronger relationship with Me! Oh, how my heart longs for you to see me as I am. With each day and passing year I am leading you to greater knowledge of who I am and greater delight in your ability to trust me and abide with me!
Time is not the issue as you place such a large amount of importance on this, but for me the ‘heart’ and its direction is all that I am looking at. Your heart is moving towards me Child and yes, the greater the surrender, the more you draw into me and my plans.
Be joyful that you are being led closer to me each day. Keep your eyes on my word and your heart desiring me and truth will always lead you home to me!
Sons, and Daughters – may His words stir your hearts and cause you to be free to ENTER into the Secret Place with your beloved King!
Amelia
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